Restless

I can look into the pool of reflection 
pray that it promises any projection, 
walk into the caves of deep mind's eye 
hope there's answer to the resounding 'why?' 
I'll try powers of introspection 
there maybe some correction 
to the errors I've been making, 
give them a smile - they don't guess I'm faking, 
Listening to songs from back in days of promise 
memory is company to me in my solace,
smoking and drinking myself to the brink of bad health 
- assuming that the liquor will bring the thoughts quicker.
There's a lot of sitting and waiting
restless days of procrastinating
a bag of ideas that are no good to use,
you were given a gift, please don't abuse.