blind

I'm always looking for you but I can never find you, you fade into the background and wear shades that I'm blind to. It's what I put my energy into, where my emotion is most strong, but it never opens a door and I've usually got it wrong. Should I keep knocking on the entrance to find it leads to repentance and no conclusion to my never ending mission, each dead end tainting my vision even further, and is it worth contacting the optician to question my sight, ask if it's up to scratch? or could it be I should stop looking, detach my gaze from this, get over it, give it a miss. Thing is I've been looking at you, wondering what I lack, but truth is there's nothing, you're not looking back.